I have read numerous posts regarding the awful feelings about needing to disclose stress facts for your t, although I hope this is not completely ridiculous. I am working with almost the contrary.
I've many 'issues' that I am conscious of from an emotionally/verbally abusive stepfather to a grownup that I trusted in HighSchool as a maternal figure that later confirmed she had different tips for your relationship... Then what is daily becoming more of the confidence that I've repressed very early punishment (I've always had risks but am not hearing his and my voice within my brain which isnot satisfying exchange of words)... I've NEVER told information on ANY of this stuff. I've stated to 2 people that "something" occurred with this person I trusted which was the level. I am plagued small movie within my head of the ones I recall by photos now these sounds of what I think.
Does this make sense to EVERYONE? I know I'd be HIGHLY embaressed to state the items I expect it'snot anything ill making me wish and I'd need to to... But I'm so worried we are going to spend years because he thinks I am afraid tiptoeing around the specifics and I am seriously wanting to pour the beans. I hope I can tell him this, but it is not allowed.
I am working together with at and have found that I am unable to tell him ANYTHING if he doesn't ask. I've told him this and he's great at attempting to ask me questions. The thing is, I also can not tell him what to ask. I understand it could appear totally crazy, but it is similar to I am not allowed to only readily tell things-but I'm permitted to answer. He has gone backwards and forwards about 'running' trauma then I believe I'm so calm about things happening he doesn't think they are and starts to believe we must go another direction. I get disappointed after I hear him need to stop hope about actually getting relief and obtain really frustrated and talk about not addressing the trauma especially. It is like trauma, trauma, trauma I AM AWARE I have to acquire these details out-but I can't tell him that. I believe he is also worried I cannot handle coping with the injury directly due to my anxiety attacks, but I really donot understand how to change any one of this. He covers trauma that you can and trying to take action with as small depth and that I have read about all these new methods to take care of PTSD without detailed handling, but I would like it bad.